1- A CrossFitting Mommy at the Primus

Dear Mikayla & Jordan,

Although mommy struggled with some some internal battles, I decided to dare greatly — put myself in the arena — show up & be seen. I registered for my first CrossFit competition. The butterflies & self doubt swept in quickly. The days leading up to the competition was grueling. I thought about backing out making every excuse in my head to rationalize my fears. Then two days before the PRIMUS I was finishing my last workout, I dropped the barbell when I looked up and gazed my eyes on you two. You were sitting and watching me with pure amazement. I realized the fear I have of competing isn’t greater than the fear I have of not being a great example for you. Today, as the weight felt heavy & I felt every muscle on fire, I looked up at your beautiful innocent eyes watching & I heard you chant “go Mommy you can do it” — I closed my eyes & finished as best I could. Now that it’s over I’m so happy I did it… Although I wasn’t first, I wasn’t last but at the end that doesn’t matter. When you two said “Mommy I’m proud of you!” my heart became full for a lifetime! Thank you for inspiring me to be the best that I can be for you!!